Saturday, June 9, 2012
Do Not Let Your Hearts Be Troubled
When I got back from Canada, Alexandra looked two years older than when I left. Or at least two weeks older. In the five days I was gone, she got so much stronger. She can now hold herself up on her legs! She stood by herself, holding onto the bed earlier today, and now likes to stand on her legs whenever she can.
This is her after landing a Triple Front Roundhouse. Perfect 10! As always, she's pretty pleased with herself.
Being gone from her was so hard for the first day, primarily because I knew she wouldn't take her bottle. I felt like someone had punched me in the stomach for the first day and a half I was gone. Then I read these words and I felt so much better. Alexandra gave in to the bottle after a couple of hours and was fine the rest of the time I was gone, if a little more needy than usual. Now I'm home and she's back to nursing just fine, and it's as if I was never gone. What a reminder of what a waste worrying is. I spent so much energy worrying about leaving my baby. Now that everything was fine, I know it was a waste, but even had it gone poorly, it still wouldn't have helped a bit. I still have a lot to learn in making these words stick in my heart:
"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you...Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid." (John 14:27)