My approach to walking is similar to my approach to parenting. The only problem, is it doesn't work.
I like lines. I like rules. I like nice and tidy equations. When I have a question about how something "should" be done in parenting, I want an answer, like to a math problem. A + B = C. Baby not napping + defined solution = newly napping baby. However, my baby, though quite the amenable gal, is not an equation. She isn't a robot or a computer who simply needs the proper programming solution applied to her. This is hard for me, Hermione Granger, who simply wants to know the "right" answer and apply it.
People tell me I should just follow my intuition. Is there a book I can read that will tell me what my intuition says? Despite what Mr. Meyers and Briggs say, I have no idea what my intuition says...except that I should go read a book.
Mr. Michael, of course, has no such problems as a parent. While I'm scouring parenting books to transform myself into the perfect mother, he's just kickin' it Kauaian style on the floor with the baby. He must take after her.
Despite my bookish compulsions, I do think I'm getting a hang of this gal at 5-months. Of course, in two weeks, she'll be 6 months, and I'll have to start all over again. Though I do still occasionally twitch with my need to "get it right" with my baby, here is what I've learned thus far:
- I don't think there is a "right" way when it comes to feeding, sleeping, napping, playing, etc., as much as it goes against my German grain to say it. I'm turning into quite the hippie, and plan to go buy some flowing broom skirts this afternoon. (Of course, my particular baby lends herself to this conclusion. She's pretty accommodating to whatever parenting whim I execute on a particular day.)
- I need to chill out. This is a recurring theme in my life.
- After watching Toy Story 3 again last night, I cried, as usual, but this time for different reasons. This time, I was the mom watching old home movies and hugging her child goodbye as he goes off for college. Leading me to point three: I better just forget about getting it right and just go hug and kiss the baby some more.